origins

I’m one of the most insecure people you will ever meet. I started cutting my wrists when I was 13, learned to patch holes I smashed in walls when I was 17, and attempted to take my own life when I was 20. God put a few dicey psychological issues in my life and family with an abusive bipolar parent (unfortunately she never got help) that have been huge catalysts for me to try and understand the way we work, and I didn’t believe they were some of the biggest blessings in my life until He showed me that through honesty and talking about them that I could tell my story to sometimes help others navigate through their own. There is always great purpose in suffering. My life isn’t bad by any means and I was definitely provided for as a kid, but I’ve dealt with my fair share of bullshit and let entitlement and poor perspectives take control. Had I not been raised as an insecure emotional mess, I never would have needed or stumbled across astrophotography as a medium to vent and express what I was feeling. I’m a very broken man with more flaws than most, but the one thing I’ve done right is trust God that there is a deeper meaning to it all. I’m not going to pretend like I understand the hardships you face, but everything in me believes that God, the universe, or whatever you believe in has put obstacles in your life to help you become the strongest version of yourself in order to fulfill your unique destiny and purpose here. You don’t have to necessarily know what the end game is with it all, but I hope you have the faith to persevere because you’re here for a greater purpose that transcends all of the negativity. Anyone can start to find purpose by seeking the good in the bad. You are capable of great things and even your flaws say so. Promise. 👊❤️